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Therapy for Women in Emergency Medicine

PHYSICIAN MENTAL HEALTH • April 05, 2026

The Parking Garage at the End of a Twelve-Hour Shift

You are sitting in your car in the hospital parking garage. The engine is off. Your white coat is still on. You have been sitting here for twenty minutes, staring at the concrete wall in front of you, unable to make yourself turn the key and drive home. The fluorescent hum of the garage lights buzzes above you, and the smell of antiseptic still clings to your clothes. The steering wheel is cold under your hands, but you can’t seem to let go of it. It’s as if the physical act of gripping the wheel is the only thing keeping you tethered to the present moment. You know you should leave. You know your partner is waiting, that dinner is probably cold, that the dog needs to be walked. But the thought of transitioning from the life-and-death stakes of the trauma bay to the mundane reality of your living room feels insurmountable. It’s not just exhaustion; it’s a profound, cellular depletion that sleep alone cannot cure. You are operating on a deficit that has been accumulating for years, since the first day of your residency. The expectation in emergency medicine is that you will always be ready, always be sharp, always be capable of managing the unimaginable. And you are. You have proven it time and time again. But the cost of that readiness is a nervous system that has forgotten how to rest. You sit in the car, listening to the engine tick as it cools, and you wonder how much longer you can keep doing this. You wonder if there is a version of you left that isn’t defined by the trauma bay. You wonder if you will ever be able to just be a person again, instead of a physician.

The adrenaline is still coursing through your veins. You cannot downshift. Your hands are perfectly still on the steering wheel, but your mind is running codes. You are replaying the intubation from three hours ago, second-guessing the dosage on the trauma patient, bracing for the pager that is no longer clipped to your hip. The silence of the car is deafening after a shift where two people died, and you are expected to just walk into your house and ask your partner how their day was.

In my work with clients, I see this constantly. You aren’t broken because you can’t just walk away and forget it. Your body is doing exactly what it was trained to do in the ER, but it doesn’t know the shift is over. The hypervigilance that makes you an exceptional emergency medicine physician is the same mechanism that is slowly hollowing you out. You are trapped in a state of perpetual readiness, unable to access the rest your body so desperately needs.

What Is Burnout — And Why Emergency Medicine Is Ground Zero

Burnout in emergency medicine isn’t just being tired. It is the result of high-acuity decisions made every 8 to 15 minutes, the unpredictable nature of the specialty, and the profound moral injury from system failures. Research consistently shows that emergency medicine physicians experience some of the highest burnout rates in all of medicine, often exceeding 60%. But statistics don’t capture the lived reality of this exhaustion. It’s the feeling of being hollowed out from the inside, of having nothing left to give, yet being required to give anyway. It’s the slow erosion of the empathy that brought you to medicine in the first place, replaced by a cynical detachment that you hate but cannot seem to shake. You are constantly asked to do more with less—less time, fewer resources, less support—while the acuity of the patients you see continues to rise. The system is fundamentally broken, and you are the one expected to hold it together with sheer force of will. You are the one who has to look a patient in the eye and tell them that they will have to wait another six hours for a bed, or that the specialist they need isn’t available until tomorrow. You are the one who absorbs their anger, their fear, and their despair, because you are the only face of the system they can see. This constant exposure to suffering, combined with the inability to provide the care you know is necessary, creates a toxic environment that inevitably leads to burnout. It is not a sign of weakness that you are struggling; it is a sign that you are human, and that you are operating in an inhumane system.

Unlike other specialties, you do not have the luxury of longitudinal patient relationships. You are meeting people on the worst day of their lives, stabilizing them, and moving on to the next crisis. You are the safety net for a broken healthcare system, catching the patients who have fallen through every other crack. You are managing psychiatric emergencies, complex traumas, and primary care complaints all in the same hour, often with inadequate resources and boarding patients in the hallways.

This constant exposure to systemic failure creates a profound sense of moral distress. You know what the patient needs, but the system prevents you from providing it. This is not a failure of your clinical skills; it is a failure of the environment in which you are forced to practice. And yet, you are the one who must look the patient in the eye and explain why they cannot get the care they deserve. This is a heavy burden to carry, and it fundamentally alters your relationship with your work.

Why Your Nervous System Never Actually Leaves the ER

When your threat-detection system (the amygdala) is perpetually activated, you can’t simply “wind down.” The body keeps the nervous system in red-alert mode long after the shift ends. Bessel van der Kolk, MD, psychiatrist and trauma researcher at Boston University School of Medicine, author of The Body Keeps the Score, notes that the body holds onto these states of chronic activation. Your nervous system has adapted to the environment of the ER. It has learned that the world is a dangerous place, full of sudden crises and unpredictable threats. This adaptation is brilliant for survival in the trauma bay, but it is disastrous for your life outside of it. Your body is constantly scanning for danger, interpreting neutral stimuli as potential threats. A loud noise, a sudden movement, even a minor disagreement with your partner can trigger a full-blown fight-or-flight response. Your body reacts as if your life is in danger, flooding your system with adrenaline and cortisol. You may find yourself snapping at your children over trivial things, or feeling a surge of panic when your phone rings. This hypervigilance is exhausting. It drains your energy and leaves you feeling constantly on edge. You may try to manage it with alcohol, or exercise, or simply by working more, but these are only temporary fixes. They do not address the underlying physiological dysregulation. To truly heal, you must address the nervous system directly. You must teach your body that it is safe to let its guard down, that the threat has passed, and that you are no longer in the ER.

Stephen Porges, PhD, Distinguished University Scientist at Indiana University and developer of the Polyvagal Theory, explains why the autonomic nervous system doesn’t have an off switch when you’ve spent years in “defend” mode. Your body has learned that safety is an illusion and that readiness is survival. This isn’t a metaphor. It is a structural change in how your brain processes information.

The constant flood of cortisol and adrenaline reshapes your neural pathways, making you highly reactive to potential threats and increasingly numb to ordinary joy. This is why therapy for female physicians must address the nervous system directly. You cannot talk your way out of a physiological response. Your body needs to learn, on a somatic level, that it is safe to rest.

When the Competence That Saves Lives Becomes the Thing That Isolates You

The rapid decision-making and emotional compartmentalization that make you an excellent emergency medicine physician can become liabilities at home. You can’t stop managing your partner and children, you can’t tolerate ambiguity, and you interrupt conversations to “solve.” You treat your personal life like a triage board. You assess the situation, identify the problem, and implement a solution with ruthless efficiency. But human relationships are not problems to be solved; they are experiences to be shared. When you apply the clinical gaze to your family, you strip away the warmth and vulnerability that make connection possible. You become a manager rather than a partner, a director rather than a parent. And the tragic irony is that you are doing this because you care, because you are trying to protect them from the chaos you see every day at work. But in your attempt to protect them, you end up isolating yourself. You create a wall between yourself and the people you love, a wall built of efficiency and detachment. You may find that you are unable to be truly present with your family, that your mind is always elsewhere, anticipating the next crisis. You may feel a sense of profound loneliness, even when you are surrounded by people. This isolation is a common experience for women in emergency medicine. You are surrounded by colleagues who understand the work, but who are often just as burned out and disconnected as you are. And you are surrounded by family and friends who love you, but who cannot possibly understand the weight of what you carry. This leaves you feeling entirely alone, trapped in a cycle of hypervigilance and emotional numbing.

Melissa is an emergency medicine physician at a busy teaching hospital. She is at her son Owen’s seventh birthday party. The backyard is filled with screaming children and chatting parents. Melissa is standing near the patio doors, watching the crowd, and she realizes she has been running a differential in her head on each guest. She is noting who looks tired, who might be drinking too much, who is going through something they’re not saying. She cannot turn it off.

Owen is laughing with his friends, running through the sprinkler, and Melissa is scanning the yard for danger—the sharp edge of the patio table, the slippery grass, the bee hovering near the juice boxes. She excuses herself to the kitchen and stands with her back to the counter, gripping the edge of the marble, trying to remember what it felt like to just be somewhere without waiting for the disaster to strike.

This inability to turn off the clinical gaze is a profound source of isolation. You are physically present, but emotionally absent, trapped in a state of constant vigilance. Your relationships suffer because you cannot tolerate the vulnerability required for true connection. You manage your family rather than engaging with them, applying the same efficiency and detachment that serves you in the ER to your most intimate relationships.

The Hidden Cost of Compartmentalization

Compartmentalization is an adaptive survival skill in the ER that becomes maladaptive in long-term relationships. When you dissociate from your own distress in the moment of crisis, you often can’t reconnect with it later. The distress doesn’t vanish; it accumulates in your tissues, your joints, your shortened breath. You learn to put the grief of a lost patient into a box so you can walk into the next room and treat a sprained ankle with a smile. But those boxes don’t disappear. They stack up in the dark, taking up more and more space until there is very little room left for anything else. This constant suppression of emotion requires an enormous amount of psychic energy. It is exhausting to constantly police your own internal experience, to ensure that nothing leaks out. And eventually, the dam breaks. It might happen in the form of a panic attack, a sudden outburst of anger, or a profound, unshakable depression. Or it might happen more subtly, as a slow, creeping sense of apathy and disconnection. You may find that you no longer care about the things that used to bring you joy, that you are simply going through the motions of your life without actually living it. This is the ultimate cost of compartmentalization. It robs you of your vitality, your creativity, and your capacity for connection. It turns your life into a series of tasks to be managed, rather than an experience to be lived. And it makes it incredibly difficult to seek help, because you may not even realize how much you are suffering until the pain becomes unbearable. You have become so adept at ignoring your own needs that you no longer even know what they are.

You learn to put the grief of a lost patient into a box so you can walk into the next room and treat a sprained ankle with a smile. But those boxes don’t disappear. They stack up in the dark, taking up more and more space until there is very little room left for anything else. Partners and children experience you as emotionally unavailable, distant, or constantly on edge. They don’t see the boxes; they only feel the wall you’ve built to protect them.

The cost of this compartmentalization is a profound sense of numbness. You lose access to the full spectrum of human emotion. You cannot feel the depths of sorrow, but you also cannot feel the heights of joy. You exist in a state of emotional flatlining, functioning efficiently but feeling very little. This numbness is often mistaken for resilience, but it is actually a symptom of profound trauma. It is a sign that your nervous system is overwhelmed and has shut down to protect you from the pain.

Both/And: You’re Not Broken Because You Can’t Just ‘Relax’

You are not failing at wellness because you can’t decompress. AND the nervous system dysregulation is real and it’s asking for more than a yoga class. Both things are true: the ER formed you AND the ER is extracting a cost. Hold these without collapsing to either self-blame or helplessness. It is crucial to understand that your inability to relax is not a character flaw. It is a physiological reality. Your nervous system is doing exactly what it was trained to do. But acknowledging this reality does not mean you have to accept it as your permanent state. You can honor the adaptations that have kept you alive while also recognizing that they are no longer serving you. This is the essence of the Both/And framework. It allows you to hold the complexity of your experience without judgment, creating the space necessary for true healing to begin. You can acknowledge the profound impact that emergency medicine has had on your life, both positive and negative. You can celebrate the lives you have saved, the comfort you have provided, and the incredible skill and resilience you have developed. And you can also acknowledge the toll it has taken on your body, your mind, and your relationships. You can grieve the parts of yourself that you have lost, and you can begin the slow, difficult work of reclaiming them. This is not a process of fixing yourself, because you are not broken. It is a process of integration, of bringing all the parts of yourself back together into a cohesive, resilient whole.

Jordan is an emergency medicine physician, seven years out of residency. She is in her second session of therapy. Her therapist has just asked what she does when she’s not working, and Jordan has looked blank. Not because she doesn’t have a life outside the ER, but because she’s genuinely not sure anymore what actually belongs to her. She volunteers the information carefully: she runs, she reads, she has a book club she hasn’t attended in four months.

She says all of this the way she presents a patient history — organized, objective, efficient, completely devoid of affect. Her therapist says: “What do you feel like when you’re running?” Jordan pauses for a longer time than she expected. She realizes she doesn’t run to feel anything; she runs to exhaust her body enough that her mind will finally shut up. She starts to cry, not sobbing, just a sudden, silent spilling over of water she didn’t know was there.

The realization that you have lost touch with your own internal experience is often the catalyst for seeking help. It is a painful but necessary awakening. It is the moment you acknowledge that the strategies that have kept you alive professionally are killing you personally. Acknowledging the toll that your work has taken does not diminish your accomplishments; it simply honors your humanity.

The Systemic Lens: The ER Wasn’t Built for Human Beings

Emergency medicine physicians work in a healthcare system designed around throughput metrics, not human longevity. The culture normalizes a pace that is physically unsustainable. You are asked to be the safety net for a broken society while hospital administrators track your “door-to-doctor” times and patient satisfaction scores. The “see and treat” culture demands relentless efficiency, leaving no room for the emotional processing required after a traumatic event. You are expected to function like a machine in a system that treats patients like products on an assembly line. This systemic dehumanization is at the core of the moral injury you experience. You entered medicine to heal people, but you are forced to operate in a system that prioritizes profit and efficiency over care and compassion. The cognitive dissonance between your values and the reality of your daily work is a profound source of distress. You are constantly forced to compromise your own ethical standards in order to meet the demands of the system. This moral injury is a deep, invisible wound that you carry with you every day. It breeds cynicism, detachment, and a profound sense of helplessness. And because the culture of medicine demands stoicism, you are expected to carry this weight silently, without complaint. You are expected to be a hero, a martyr, a savior. But you are not a superhero; you are a human being. And human beings are not designed to withstand this level of chronic, systemic stress. The system is failing you, just as it is failing your patients. And until the system changes, you must find ways to protect yourself from its toxic effects.

Women in emergency medicine face an additional layer of systemic friction. You are more likely to be mistaken for a nurse, receive more verbal abuse from anxious or intoxicated patients, and bear more of the informal emotional labor of the department. You are expected to be authoritative but not “bossy,” compassionate but not “emotional.” The culture of medicine still glorifies the self-sacrificing provider, and the ER is the epicenter of this toxic martyrdom.

Burning out is not a personal failure — it’s a predictable response to an impossible system. When you are constantly asked to do more with less, to compensate for the failures of the broader healthcare system, and to do so with a smile, the expectation of endless resilience becomes a form of institutional gaslighting. It shifts the blame for systemic failures onto the individuals who are breaking under their weight.

What Therapy for Emergency Medicine Physicians Actually Looks Like

Trauma-informed therapy offers nervous system regulation (not just “coping skills”), processing the moral injury, learning to be in relationships without running the room, and reclaiming a self that exists outside the physician identity. We work relationally and somatically. It’s not CBT worksheets. It’s not “have you tried mindfulness.” It’s real, grounded work to help you find your footing again. We focus on the body, because that is where the trauma lives. We use somatic experiencing to help your nervous system learn that it is safe to downshift, that the threat has passed. We use EMDR to process the specific memories and experiences that are keeping you stuck in a state of hypervigilance. And we work relationally, building a therapeutic alliance that provides a safe container for you to explore the parts of yourself that you have had to suppress in order to survive in the ER. We work to rebuild your capacity for connection, for vulnerability, and for joy. We help you to identify your own needs and to advocate for them, both in your personal life and in your professional life. We help you to set boundaries, to say no, and to prioritize your own well-being. This is not easy work. It requires courage, vulnerability, and a willingness to confront the pain that you have been avoiding for so long. But it is also incredibly rewarding. It is the path to reclaiming your life, to finding a sense of purpose and meaning that extends beyond the walls of the hospital. It is the path to becoming not just a better physician, but a more whole, resilient, and joyful human being.

We use modalities like EMDR to process the specific traumas of the ER — the difficult codes, the tragic losses, the violence — and somatic experiencing to help your body learn that it is safe to rest. This is the foundation of therapy with Annie. Healing looks like learning to tolerate the quiet. It looks like being able to sit on your couch without feeling like you’re forgetting something critical. It looks like finding the person you were before the ER taught you to expect disaster at every turn.

The goal of therapy is not to make you a better, more efficient physician. The goal is to help you reclaim your humanity. It is to help you build a life that is rich, meaningful, and sustainable, both inside and outside the hospital. It is to help you rediscover the joy, the connection, and the sense of purpose that brought you to medicine in the first place.

I want to end this section with something I say often in my clinical work: the fact that you’re still asking the question — “is there more than this?” — is not a sign that something is wrong with you. It’s a sign that something essential in you is still alive and still reaching. That is the place we work from. And it’s more than enough to begin.

Related Reading

Maslach, Christina, and Michael P. Leiter. The Truth About Burnout: How Organizations Cause Personal Stress and What to Do About It. San Francisco: Jossey-Bass, 1997.

van der Kolk, Bessel A. The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma. New York: Viking, 2014.

Porges, Stephen W. The Polyvagal Theory: Neurophysiological Foundations of Emotions, Attachment, Communication, and Self-regulation. New York: W. W. Norton & Company, 2011.

Dean, Wendy, and Simon Talbot. If I Betray These Words: Moral Injury in Medicine and Why It’s So Hard for Clinicians to Put Patients First. Hanover: Steerforth Press, 2023.

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About the Author

Annie Wright, LMFT

LMFT · Relational Trauma Specialist · W.W. Norton Author

Helping ambitious women finally feel as good as their résumé looks.

Annie Wright is a licensed psychotherapist (LMFT #95719) and trauma-informed executive coach with over 15,000 clinical hours. She works with driven, ambitious women — including Silicon Valley leaders, physicians, and entrepreneurs — in repairing the psychological foundations beneath their impressive lives. Annie is the founder and former CEO of Evergreen Counseling, a multimillion-dollar trauma-informed therapy center she built, scaled, and successfully exited. A regular contributor to Psychology Today, her expert commentary has appeared in Forbes, Business Insider, Inc., NBC, and The Information. She is currently writing her first book with W.W. Norton.

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