Rupture Is Inevitable; It’s the Repair That Counts
This essay explores rupture is inevitable; it’s the repair that counts with a trauma-informed lens. It names the protective patterns beneath what can look like personal failure, and offers a compassionate invitation to understand what happened, notice what is repeating, and practice a steadier way forward.
Understanding the Pattern
I asked her how that made her feel, empathized with her feelings, and then asked if she and her friend had been able to repair after the fight.
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“Well, sort of, Mom,” she said, “But she didn’t even know how to KRAW!”
[If you’re confused, stay with me, I’ll explain what KRAW is at the end of the essay in the P.S.]
“Oh honey,” I said, “That’s because that’s just a hand gesture our family uses to repair. It’s something mommy and daddy made up a long time ago when we needed something that would help us be friends again after we argue. Your friend doesn’t know KRAW because that’s just something our family does. But she probably knows other ways to apologize and be friends again after arguments.”
My daughter looked skeptical.
“Well, we DID apologize and play together again, so now she’s my best friend again. But for real life, other people don’t know how to KRAW?”
“Not exactly like your family does.” I said, “That’s just something mommy, daddy, and you do. But other kiddos know how to repair after they have fights with people they love because their families teach them how to talk to their friends about big feelings, apologize, and feel like friends again.”
“Okay. Can I have a cake pop for dinner now?”
I smiled.
But also denied her request for dessert before dinner.
Growing up in a dysfunctional family system and enduring relational trauma, I learned many maladaptive beliefs about what arguments and conflicts with others mean, such as:
Conflict equals danger.
Conflict equals danger.
Arguments mean you will be disowned in the court system, defriended on Facebook, be estranged, given the cold shoulder, and have doors closed in your face.
Arguments mean you will be disowned in the court system, defriended on Facebook, be estranged, given the cold shoulder, and have doors closed in your face.
To get past an argument, just ignore it and then pretend it never happened.
To get past an argument, just ignore it and then pretend it never happened.
The way to get over conflict is to just give in.
The way to get over conflict is to just give in.
How It Shows Up in Real Life
Rupture is a clinical concept discussed in this essay that helps describe how protective patterns develop and persist in relationships and daily life.
In plain terms: In plain terms: naming rupture can help you recognize a familiar response without treating yourself as the problem.
If you really love someone, there will never be arguments.
If you really love someone, there will never be arguments.
There’s no point in telling someone how they hurt you because they won’t take responsibility for their part.
There’s no point in telling someone how they hurt you because they won’t take responsibility for their part.
It’s not safe to confront others about how they made you feel.
It’s not safe to confront others about how they made you feel.
Conflict means love will be withdrawn.
Conflict means love will be withdrawn.
And more.
And more.
While I never saw them fight or argue, my friend would tell me about how her family would argue but then work through their arguments with each other, using non-violent communication.
This was so foreign to me.
But it was also a potent seed that was planted about what could be possible in healthy family systems.
Flash forward many years later into my own relational trauma recovery work, and this , the belief I held about arguments and conflict in relationships and the lack of toolbox I had to work through those arguments after they happened , was a big gap in my proverbial psychological foundation.
Over time in therapy and in time through closely connected relationships, I identified my maladaptive beliefs about what conflict and arguments in relationships meant and replaced them with more adaptive, helpful beliefs, primarily this one:
In relationship, rupture is inevitable; it’s the repair that counts.
What do I mean by this?
I mean that in any relationship between two or more people who are showing up authentically with their actual needs, wants, and preferences known and expressed, ruptures (aka disagreements, arguments, misunderstandings, misattunements, and attendant hurt feelings) are going to be inevitable.
And that is OKAY.
What Can Begin to Change
In fact, it’s totally normal, and it’s to be expected if two people are bringing their whole selves into the relationship.
So conflict in relationship is inevitable.
And after conflict comes the opportunity for repair.
Meaning acknowledging how the rupture made you and the other person feel, getting to the root of what caused the conflict, empathizing with each others’ experience, and attempting to connect again to establish relational safety.
And that , the repair after rupture , is what ultimately counts and signals a healthy relationship.
Not the absence of conflict but rather the presence of rupture to establish safety and closeness again.
For some, reading the words I just wrote may evoke a “Yeah, duh, Annie.” reaction.
This concept , in relationship rupture is inevitable, it’s the repair that counts , may be so obvious and second nature that they may even wonder why I’m writing about it.
But for others among us, such as those of us who come from relational trauma histories where we were raised by mood- or personality-disordered parents, this is not an obvious belief nor likely a dominantly lived experience.
In fact, to some, this may even sound like a fairy tale (I know it would have for me at one point).
This is a belief and a skill set many of us have to learn intellectually and then viscerally practice in safe, attuned, responsible relationships before we can finally, deeply grasp the concept that, in relationship rupture is inevitable; it’s the repair that counts.
(Now granted, last week showed us that the hand gesture our family uses to signal a desire to repair and reconnect isn’t exactly helpful when she tries to do it with other kiddos and they give her blank stares and ask her what the heck she’s doing, so we have room to improve that skill set, no doubt…)
For many of us on relational trauma recovery journeys, re-learning (or learning for the very first time) that rupture in relationship is inevitable, and it’s the repair that counts is an example of the psychological re-foundationing work that’s usually required as we attempt to grow and heal from the impacts of our past.
And often, those of us on relational trauma recovery journeys will read what I write and then say this to me: “Yes, Annie, I KNOW I need to practice this and experience safety in having conflict in relationships, but there is literally not one single person in my life who it’s safe to do this with.”
And to that, I say: “Begin by practicing it in your relationship with your therapist. Practice having conflict there first.”
And often, I’m met with another rebuttal: “But that doesn’t count. I pay my therapist. That’s not a real relationship!”
And I offer a reframe: “Yes, you pay your therapist. And that relationship between you both is REAL, and it becomes the laboratory for you to practice all these skills in. You then get to take those practiced skills out into the real world after you train with your therapist. So that relationship absolutely counts, and it’s a perfect place to practice if you don’t have anyone in your “outside life” you feel like it’s safe to practice this with. Let therapy be your laboratory.”
And remember: while those of us who come from relational trauma recovery pasts often have more psychological re-foundationing work to do and catch up on than our non-traumatized peers, but healing is utterly possible with the right support.
Here’s to healing relational trauma and creating thriving lives on solid foundations.
Repair is a clinical concept discussed in this essay that helps describe how protective patterns develop and persist in relationships and daily life.
In plain terms: In plain terms: naming repair can help you recognize a familiar response without treating yourself as the problem.
A More Compassionate Way Forward
P.S.: What the heck is KRAW?
It was messy and hard and inspired a lot of content for this blog.
We called it KRAW because it combined the initials of our name, and we paired it with a hand shaped into one half of a heart.
The other person shapes their hand into one half of a heart, and then we put them together in the shape of a full heart, and we say “KRAW” together at the same time (and then talk about what happened in more detail).
And, when one of us is super hurt and not willing to repair and/or we need to repair quickly for whatever reason, we evoke the phrase “MASTER KRAW” (we’ve only had to do this about six times in the last 12 years but man do we take it seriously).
So back to the top of the essay, our daughter has grown up seeing us do this and participating in this with us.
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She literally thought it was what all families do until the other week in preschool, so now we’re teaching her some other skills she can do with kiddos who don’t have this kind of “forgiveness secret hand gesture” in their families.
I wanted to share this with you for a few reasons:
So you could understand what I meant by the word KRAW.
So you could understand what I meant by the word KRAW.
So you could see that even a licensed therapist and someone who is an “expert” in relational trauma still needs to work on foundational psychological tools and that she has conflict with her husband (because that’s inevitable).
So you could see that even a licensed therapist and someone who is an “expert” in relational trauma still needs to work on foundational psychological tools and that she has conflict with her husband (because that’s inevitable).
And so you could be inspired to create something similar inside your own family/partnership that’s a little signal to support you all in practicing the skill of repairing after rupture.
And so you could be inspired to create something similar inside your own family/partnership that’s a little signal to support you all in practicing the skill of repairing after rupture.
If you feel so inclined, I’d love to hear from you in the comments:
What came up for you reading today’s essay? What did you learn about conflict growing up in your family system? How has that changed for you on your healing journey and what and who has helped you the most to have reparative experiences around conflict and rupture? Do you have a secret hand gesture inside your partnership/family, too?
If you feel so inclined, please leave a message. This little corner of the internet gets about 25-30,000 blog readers each month and we all learn and benefit from each others’ shares and wisdom.
Something you say may kindle hope and inspire another so thank you in advance for sharing if that feels good to you.
Q: What is this essay about?
A: It explores rupture is inevitable; it’s the repair that counts and the patterns, questions, and possibilities for healing described in the essay.
Q: Why might this pattern feel so persistent?
A: The essay explains how protective responses can become familiar over time, especially when they once helped you cope or stay connected.
Q: Can awareness really help?
A: Awareness does not erase the past, but it can create more room to notice a pattern and choose a different next step.
Q: Do I need to have a clear memory of the past to work on this?
A: No. You can pay attention to present-day reactions, needs, and relationships without proving every detail of your history.
Q: When might additional support help?
A: Therapy or another trustworthy support can offer structure and care when these patterns feel overwhelming or difficult to change alone.
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LMFT · Relational Trauma Specialist · Author, W.W. Norton 2027
Helping driven women finally feel as good as their résumé looks.
Annie Wright is an EMDR-certified licensed psychotherapist and relational trauma specialist with over 15,000 clinical hours, and she's been in practice since 2013. Trained in EMDR, psychodynamic, and somatic modalities, she is licensed in 14 U.S. jurisdictions and registered to provide telehealth in Florida (California, Colorado (telehealth only), Connecticut, the District of Columbia, Florida, Illinois, Maine, Maryland, New Hampshire, New Jersey, New York, Texas, Utah, Virginia, and Washington). Annie works with driven and ambitious women from relational trauma backgrounds, and everything she writes about is field-tested across thousands of clinical sessions. She is the founder and former CEO of Evergreen Counseling, a multimillion-dollar trauma-informed therapy center she built, scaled, and successfully exited, and is currently writing her first book, The Everything Years: Navigating the Pressure and Promise of Your Thirties, with W.W. Norton (2027). A regular contributor to Psychology Today, her expert commentary has appeared in USA Today, Forbes, Business Insider, Inc., NBC, and The Information.
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