At the heart of each of these statements is fundamental belief: I’m not healed enough to do X, Y, Z…

And while this may feel like a fundamental belief, it’s not a reality: it’s a myth.

And it’s a common myth that, for those who believe in it, can ironically hold them back from the people, places, and pursuits that would otherwise be the most healing agents in their recovery journeys.

“Healed enough” is a myth; not a fact.

“Go out in the woods, go out. If you don’t go out in the woods nothing will ever happen and your life will never begin.” ― Clarissa Pinkola Estés, PhD

I’ve written about this extensively before but, to reiterate, those who come from relational trauma backgrounds may experience a host of complex biopsychosocial impacts that linger long into adulthood as a result of their adverse early childhoods.

One example of these impacts can include having maladaptive beliefs about one’s own “brokenness” (e.g.: impaired self-worth).

Often, for folks who come from relational trauma histories, this translates into people often thinking that they need to be “all healed” before moving towards the things they truly want (dating, kids, grad school, that dream career) because they feel “too broken” to have these good things in their lives now.

This belief is common, it’s normal and natural. 

But, just because it may be a normal and natural belief doesn’t mean that it’s an accurate belief.

What do I mean by it not being an accurate belief?

To me, this belief is a little analogous to thinking that you have to be perfectly fit before you can go to the gym and work out (something that would ironically help propel you more into a state of fitness). 

You may not feel ready to be looked at by others in your workout gear, you may worry you’re not as fit as others who may go to the gym and who will be running side-by-side on the treadmills with you, and therefore there’s no place for you there. 

But, empirically, it is not true that you aren’t fit enough to be at a gym.

Factually, there is no one fitness level mandated to frequent a gym (and if you ever encounter a gym that doesn’t have a Health at Every Size attitude – consider finding another establishment that values and embodies inclusivity more). 

Again, just because something feels true doesn’t mean it’s factually, empirically true.

So, while you may not feel “healed enough” (to sign up for that dating app, to ask that gorgeous woman out, to research and lay the groundwork for the fulfilling work your heart and soul craves), your feelings don’t necessarily mean fact.

“Healed enough” is a myth. 

It’s a story. It implies there’s one right way of being and all other ways are insufficient. 

It suggests that there is an endpoint to healing and – only then! – are good things, worthy things, fulfilling things possible. 

And you can’t have them until you arrive at that “fully healed” destination.

I don’t believe this. Not at all.

Starting before you feel “healed enough” can actually be the most healing thing.

“This life is mine alone. So I have stopped asking people for directions to places they’ve never been.” ― Glennon Doyle

“Fully healed” or “healed enough” is a myth. I don’t buy it.

Instead, what I believe personally and professionally, is that moving towards the things that you want – those people, places, and pursuits that would fill your life with meaning and fulfillment – and specifically, moving towards those things before you feel ready can actually accelerate your healing journey by boosting your sense of agency, competency, and support the reclamation and healing of your self-esteem and self-worth in the world.

I believe this because, in my own life, in my own relational trauma recovery journey, it was precisely my engagement with the very things I felt convinced I was still too “broken for” that led to some of my deepest and most profound healing experiences.

Some of these highlights included leaving Big Sur and the cozy healing cocoon of Esalen for the Bay Area (the real world!); dating, moving in with, and then marrying my husband; completing grad school and launching my career, concurrently putting myself out (eek!) online for the world to see.

Each time I moved towards these things that my heart wanted, I felt incapable and riddled with doubts and maladaptive beliefs (“I’ll never make it in the Bay – it’s too expensive!”; “He’s going to leave me – everyone always leaves me.”; “Who am I to think I can help other people? I can barely help myself.”). 

And, if I’m being honest, my skills to be able to successfully do all these things were nascent and hugely imperfect, too.

But between the combination of time plus reparative experiences (reparative experiences such as my husband not leaving me and proving year after year he could be a constant source of love, loyalty, and support; or figuring out a way to pay my bills while I earned the thousands and thousands of unpaid trainee and internship hours required of my career; or reading emails and blog comments from people like you telling me what I wrote and shared was actually helping them), this combination of time plus reparative experiences because the greatest accelerant of my healing on my relational trauma recovery journey.

I’ve now come to believe that reparative experiences – lived experiences and actions taken across an arc of time that challenge our cognitive and somatic distortions – can help rewire our maladaptive beliefs and behaviors about ourselves, others, and the world in a way that theory, imagination, or positive wishful thinking simply can’t compete with in terms of effectiveness.

It’s one thing to challenge your critical self-talk with kinder, more supportive self-talk. 

It’s another thing entirely to prove to yourself through your lived experiences that those kinder, more supportive self-statements are, in fact, true.

Prompts to help you think through whether this myth is playing out in your own life:

“What is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” – Mary Oliver

If, after reading today’s essay, you can see that some part of you is deferring moving towards and taking action on the future you want because you don’t believe you’re “healed enough” yet, I invite you to consider this reframe I offered today: that perhaps the most healing thing you could do for yourself is to start before you feel “healed enough.”

Of course, though, I want you to balance what I’m saying – that there is no such thing as “healed enough” and that perhaps the most healing thing you could do would be to start now – with your own, innate wisdom.

Only you are the expert of your experience – not me, not your partner, your best friend, or some guru on Instagram. 

What may be true for you is that, at this point in time, it is not the right time for you to move towards something even if you want it (for example: I knew early on and deep in my bones that I wasn’t ready to be a mother until I was later-in-life and boy am glad I listened to that innate wisdom!).

Only you know what is best and right and true for you so, please, sit with what I shared today but always filter it through your own experience and wisdom.

And, if you’re curious to explore this topic further ask yourself:

• What am I craving and dreaming about that I’m not currently moving towards right now?
• What beliefs do I have about my capacity to do that?
• Are these beliefs helpful or harmful? 
• Do these beliefs feel like voices and ideas from my past (like a familiar voice from someone close to me) or are they coming from my body, from some bone-deep wisdom and inner knowing inside of me?
• What do I imagine might happen if I begin to take action towards what I want?
• What’s the worst-case scenario and what’s the best-case scenario?
• Do I know anyone else who “started before they were ready” and who has happy outcomes I’d like for myself? 
• What would it take for me to emulate them? Would I like to do this?

The reality is, to quote the inimitable late Mary Oliver, we have (as far as we know) one wild and precious life, and if you’re struggling to craft a life that feels good to you despite your adverse early beginnings, I’d love to be of support to you.

If, after completing these prompts, you feel like you would like professional and expert support to help you begin to move towards the people, places, and pursuits your heart is longing for and if you’re in California or Florida and ready to begin high-quality, trauma-informed therapy, my team and I at Evergreen Counseling can help. Book a complimentary consultation with our clinical intake director, and she’ll match you to the therapist who’s the best fit for you personally, clinically, and logistically. (It may even be me!)

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And now, I’d love to hear from you in the comments below:  

What’s one example from your own life where you didn’t wait until you were fully healed to begin? And how did beginning that – starting before you maybe felt ready – actually support your healing process?

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Thank you for being here. Until next time, please take such good care of yourself. You’re so worth it.

Warmly,

Annie