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LIFE TRANSITIONS & MAJOR DECISIONS • December 24, 2017

In the Liminal Space Between Years

There is a quality to the days between Christmas and New Year’s that I’ve always found uniquely valuable — a brief, collective permission to slow down. The world seems to agree, for just a few days, to pause. Emails go unanswered. Schedules thin out. The usual velocity of life drops a few degrees, and in that quieter temperature, something becomes possible that’s harder during the rush: honest reflection.

In my practice, I’ve done a version of this annual reflection for years — a structured closing and opening process that I use for myself and have shared with clients and readers. It’s not a goal-setting exercise in the conventional sense. It’s something more like taking inventory: of what actually happened, what mattered, what I’m carrying, what I’m ready to release, and what I want more of in the year ahead.

This post is an offering of that process, expanded with clinical context: why this kind of reflection actually helps, how to do it when your year has been genuinely hard, and how to enter a new year with more of your own authority rather than the momentum of old patterns.

What I want to offer you in this piece is a clinical framework for moving through this liminal time with intention rather than just surviving it. Not a list of resolutions. Not a motivational push. But a genuine inquiry into what the year has made of you, what you’ve made of it, and what you want to carry forward into the next one. This is slower, quieter work than most year-end content encourages — and it’s the kind of work that actually moves the needle.

The Science of Reflection and Integration

Dr. Hengchen Dai, PhD, associate professor at UCLA Anderson School of Management, and colleagues published research in Psychological Science demonstrating the “fresh start effect” — the finding that people are significantly more likely to pursue behavior change following temporal landmarks (the new year, a birthday, a Monday) than at other points. The psychological mechanism appears to be a cognitive separation between the pre-landmark self and the post-landmark self, which allows people to feel that past failures or limitations belong to an earlier version of themselves.

This is not mere superstition — it’s a genuine feature of how human minds relate to time and identity. New Year’s is a particularly potent temporal landmark because it’s culturally shared, meaning millions of people are simultaneously activated toward reflection and intention-setting. That collective activation has real effects.

Dr. James Pennebaker, PhD, social psychologist and professor at the University of Texas at Austin, has spent decades studying the psychological effects of expressive writing. His research consistently demonstrates that writing about significant emotional experiences — including the processing of difficult periods — reduces distress, improves immune function, and supports psychological integration. The act of putting words to what we’ve experienced helps the brain make sense of it in ways that pure rumination doesn’t.

The year-end reflection practices I’m offering here draw on both: the fresh start effect of the temporal landmark, and the integrative power of expressive processing.

“You may shoot me with your words. You may cut me with your eyes. You may kill me with your hatefulness. But still, like air, I’ll rise.” — Maya Angelou, “And Still I Rise”

How to Close Out the Year You’ve Had

This part of the process is about honest accounting — not a highlight reel, not self-flagellation, but a genuine witness of the year that actually happened. Set aside an hour when you can be alone. Paper and pen if possible (handwriting slows the brain down usefully). And move through these questions slowly:

What actually happened this year? Not what you hoped would happen, or what you thought should have happened. What actually happened — the milestones, the losses, the ordinary weeks, the unexpected turns?

What did you carry this year? What were you holding — logistically, emotionally, relationally — that required your energy and attention? What was heavy? What was a quiet joy? What surprised you?

Where did you grow? Not the growth you planned for — the growth that actually happened, often sideways, often through difficulty. What do you know now that you didn’t know in January?

What are you proud of? Even small things. The conversation you had that you’d been avoiding. The day you took care of yourself when everything in you said push through. The moment of genuine connection. The work you showed up for even when you weren’t sure you could.

What do you want to grieve? The losses, the disappointments, the relationships that changed, the version of the year you’d hoped for that didn’t materialize. What deserves acknowledgment and mourning rather than suppression and forward motion?

What are you ready to release? The stories about yourself that no longer serve. The relationships that have run their course. The commitments you made from obligation rather than genuine choice. What is it time to let go of?

The closing questions are not meant to be answered quickly. They are meant to be sat with. I often encourage clients to work with them across a few days — morning pages, a long walk, a conversation with someone who knows them well. The value is not in the speed of the answers but in the quality of the contact with yourself that the questions create.

Elena, a 44-year-old physician I worked with, approached year-end reflection for the first time with skepticism born of exhaustion: “I barely have time to eat lunch. I’m supposed to also do introspective journaling?” I suggested she try it for twenty minutes. She came back two weeks later having filled three journals. What she found, under the busyness, was a clarity she hadn’t had access to in years. Not clarity about what to do — clarity about what she actually felt, what she actually wanted, and how far she had drifted from both. That clarity was the beginning of something real — something she could act on.

How to Welcome the Year Ahead

Once the closing work is done — once you’ve witnessed the year honestly and released what’s ready to be released — the opening work becomes possible. Not goal-setting in the conventional productivity sense, but something more like conscious intention:

What do you most want to feel this coming year? Not what you want to achieve. What you want to feel — in your body, in your relationships, in your work. What quality of experience are you longing for?

What one thing, if you actually did it, would most change the quality of your daily life? Not the most impressive thing on your list. The most impactful. The thing you’ve been circling for years without landing on.

What support do you need that you haven’t given yourself permission to seek yet? Therapy, coaching, a mentor, a community, a deeper commitment to a practice. What would actually help, that you’ve been managing without?

What do you want more of in your relationships? More honesty, more ease, more depth, more space, more repair. What do your close relationships need from you, and what do you need from them?

What does a good life look like to you, in honest terms, as you enter this year? Not the aspirational version for an imagined audience. The one you’d actually want to live.

Write these down. Put them somewhere you’ll encounter them — not in a journal you close and never open, but somewhere that will hold you accountable to yourself in an ongoing way. The point is not to achieve all of it. The point is to stay in contact with what you actually want your life to be, rather than operating purely on old momentum.

This contact — between your current self and what actually matters to you — is what intention-setting is really for. Not discipline, not willpower, not a longer to-do list. The practice of articulating what you want is itself the practice of knowing yourself, which is the foundation of every other change.

The Both/And of Year-End Reflection

Maya, a 39-year-old operations director I worked with, did this process for the first time after a year that she described as “objectively terrible” — a divorce, a major professional setback, a health scare. She was resistant to the closing and opening work. “Why would I want to reflect on this year?” she asked. “I want to forget it happened.”

I told her what I’ve come to believe: that the years we most want to skip over are often the ones that most need witnessing. The difficulty doesn’t go away because we refuse to look at it — it just goes underground and shapes the next year from below.

When Maya did the reflection, she found — alongside the genuine grief and disappointment — things she hadn’t expected. How much she’d grown under pressure. How she’d discovered what she actually valued when the scaffolding fell away. How, stripped of the marriage and the professional identity she’d built around it, she’d begun to locate something more essential about herself.

Both things were true: the year had been genuinely terrible, and it had given her things she couldn’t have found any other way. Holding both without collapsing into either is the work of year-end reflection.

I see driven women resist this Both/And more often at year-end than at any other time. The cultural message is so relentlessly forward-focused — goal-setting, resolution-making, achievement-planning — that sitting with complexity can feel like a failure to thrive. But the Both/And of year-end is not a consolation prize for a hard year. It is a rigorous act of honesty that creates the conditions for genuine forward movement rather than the kind of aspirational leaping that lands you in the same patterns twelve months from now.

The year you had was the year you had. It contained both what you intended and what you didn’t. Both what you chose and what happened to you. Both who you planned to be and who the year required you to become. All of it — the difficulty and the growth, the loss and what the loss made possible — all of it is yours to bring forward. None of it needs to be discarded to make a fresh start.

The Systemic Lens: What’s Running Your Life

One of the questions I find most valuable in year-end reflection is one that doesn’t appear in most conventional goal-setting exercises: what has been running your life this year? Not what you’ve been consciously choosing — what has actually been driving your behavior, your decisions, your emotional landscape?

For driven women with relational trauma histories, the honest answer is often something like: the need to prove myself. Or: the fear of being left. Or: the belief that I have to earn my right to rest. Or: the old wound that tells me I’m not quite enough, no matter what I achieve.

These are not character flaws. They are the legacy of early relational environments — the invisible operating systems installed in childhood that continue to run in the background of adult life, often without our awareness. The work of relational trauma recovery is, in large part, the work of bringing these operating systems to consciousness and choosing, deliberately, which ones to keep running and which ones to rewrite.

Year-end reflection is an unusually good moment for this kind of inquiry. The temporal landmark creates enough psychological distance to look at the year with a degree of honesty that’s harder in the middle of it. What patterns do you see? What kept repeating? What would you most want to change about how you operated in the world this year?

These are not comfortable questions. They are useful ones.

If what you’ve read here resonates, I want you to know that individual therapy and executive coaching are available for driven women ready to do this work. You can also explore my self-paced recovery courses or schedule a complimentary consultation to find the right fit.

The cultural water that ambitious women swim in deserves naming explicitly. Joan C. Williams, JD, distinguished professor at UC Hastings College of Law, has documented extensively how women in high-status professions face what she calls the “double bind” — judged harshly when they’re warm (read as not competent enough) and judged harshly when they’re competent (read as not warm enough). Add a relational trauma history to that bind, and the inner monitoring becomes nearly continuous. Healing has to include a clear-eyed look at how much of the exhaustion isn’t yours alone — it’s a load you’ve been carrying for systems that were never designed to hold you.

Steps Toward Healing: How to Close a Year With Intention and Welcome What’s Next

In my work with clients, the end of the year tends to surface things that have been successfully avoided during the busy months. The slower pace and the cultural expectation of reflection can suddenly make room for grief, for stocktaking, for the quiet question of whether the life you’ve been living is actually the one you want. If that’s what’s rising for you right now, I want to say: that’s not a malfunction. That’s exactly what this season can offer, if you’re willing to receive it.

Closing a year well isn’t about cataloging your wins or optimizing next year’s goals. It’s about genuine witnessing — looking honestly at what the year held, what it cost you, what it gave you, and what you’re carrying forward into the next one. This kind of reflection requires slowing down enough to actually feel, which is harder than it sounds for women who’ve spent the year moving at high speed. But the alternative — crossing the threshold into January without any real integration — tends to produce the familiar January flatness, the sense of resetting without actually having renewed.

One practice I often offer to clients at year’s end draws on parts work principles from Internal Family Systems. Rather than asking “what do I want to achieve next year?” — which tends to activate the achiever part and produce a list — try asking: “What part of me is most tired? What does she need?” and “What part of me is most ready to grow? What does she want?” These are different questions. They invite a more textured, more honest conversation with yourself than goal-setting typically allows. And what they surface is often more useful than any resolution.

If the year held loss — of a relationship, a role, a version of yourself you thought you’d always be — it’s worth naming that directly rather than immediately pivoting to what comes next. Grief doesn’t respond well to being rushed into optimism. A somatic practice that I find useful for year-end grieving: sit quietly, place a hand on your chest, and let yourself name three things you’re genuinely sad about leaving behind. Not to wallow, but to acknowledge. What’s acknowledged can integrate. What’s bypassed tends to resurface, usually at inconvenient times.

The welcoming of something new — a year, a chapter, a version of yourself — works best when it’s paired with genuine release. You can’t fully open your hands to receive something new if they’re still gripping what you’re leaving. This is why the closing-out work matters as much as the visioning. Give the old year a real goodbye before you turn the page.

And if there are things from this past year that you haven’t been able to metabolize — patterns you’d hoped would change but didn’t, relationships that remain unresolved, versions of yourself you’re struggling to outgrow — the new year is a genuinely good time to invest in the support that makes real change possible. Not because January 1st is magic, but because the willingness to begin is its own kind of momentum worth honoring.

If you’re entering a new year ready for something more than the same patterns with a fresh coat of resolution, I’d love to talk. Therapy with Annie offers real, sustained support for driven women who are ready to make meaningful change. And if you’d like some help identifying where to focus, the free quiz is a good place to start. Whatever this new year holds, you deserve to enter it with real resources behind you — not just good intentions.

Maya, a 41-year-old oncologist I work with, resisted this kind of year-end reflection for years. “I was afraid of what I’d find,” she admitted. “I knew the year had been hard, and I didn’t want to look directly at it.” What she eventually discovered — in a session where we went through the closing prompts together — was not the catalog of failures she’d feared, but something more complex: evidence of her own resilience that she’d been too busy to register in real time. “I kept going,” she said. “Even when I had every reason not to. I didn’t realize that until I actually looked at the year.” That recognition is one of the gifts of honest reflection: you discover what you actually endured and what it actually took, and you get to be proud of that in a way that running forward never allows.

If this kind of intentional closing and opening practice is new for you, I recommend starting without pressure. You don’t need to answer every prompt. You don’t need to produce a perfectly synthesized vision for the year ahead. Begin with the question that calls to you most, and stay with it until you’ve written something honest. You can build on it from there. The Strong & Stable newsletter offers weekly support for this kind of ongoing reflective practice, and Fixing the Foundations provides a structured course for deeper relational and psychological work across the year.

What I see consistently in my work with driven, ambitious women is that the body holds the truth long before the mind catches up. By the time a client lands in my office describing what isn’t working, her nervous system has been signaling for months — sometimes years. The tightness in her jaw at 3 a.m., the way her shoulders climb toward her ears during certain conversations, the unexplained fatigue that no amount of sleep seems to touch. These aren’t separate problems. They’re a single integrated story the body is telling about an emotional terrain the conscious mind hasn’t been able to face yet.

Happy holidays. Happy new year. I genuinely mean it — not in the reflexive way, but in the way of someone who has watched people navigate very hard years and find, in the turning of them, something more honest and more theirs than they had before. (PMID: 9384857)

May this year’s closing give you something worth carrying forward. And may the new year bring you more of what you actually want, and less of what you’ve been settling for.

One of the most important things I tell clients in early sessions is this: the patterns we’re going to look at together aren’t character flaws. They’re the residue of strategies that once kept you safe. The over-functioning, the difficulty resting, the way you find yourself absorbing other people’s moods before you’ve registered your own — every one of these adaptations made sense in the original environment that shaped them. The work isn’t to shame the strategy. It’s to update the system that keeps generating it.

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