“Trauma is any experience that leaves a person feeling hopeless, helpless, or profoundly unsafe.”— Janina Fisher, PhD

In the course of my thirteen years as a therapist, I’ve heard some iteration of these two questions hundreds of times:

“What even *is* trauma?” and “How do I know if mine “counts”?”

I’ll never get tired of answering these questions – whether it’s for my individual therapy clients or here on the internet with you.

I’ll never get tired of answering these questions because they were two of the dominant questions I wondered about for years, too.

So I answer my clients and I share this information widely online because they’re the answers I would have so desperately wanted to know when I was 15 or 20 years old.

So, with the hopes that this will feel helpful to you, let me share some psychoeducation with you.

What is trauma?

“Traumatic events overwhelm the ordinary systems of care that give people a sense of control, connection, and meaning.” — Judith Herman, MD

Let’s begin with a broad, high-level overview of what trauma is and isn’t. 

This may feel redundant and obvious to you but I still want to ground us into this 30,000 foot view and reiterate what you may already know so that this information and everything else I share in this essay is firmly cemented. 

I believe psychoeducation for those of us who come from relational trauma histories is critical.

The more you really understand the basics of it – not to mention the more you know about relational trauma specifically – the more easily you can see yourself and your life story more clearly and be equipped to seek out the right kind of support.

So, again, we ask the question: what defines trauma?

Trauma is subjective.

I want to share a quote with you from one of my favorite trauma clinicians – Karen Saakvitne, Ph.D.

“Trauma is the unique individual experience of an event or enduring conditions in which the individual’s ability to integrate his/her emotional experience is overwhelmed and the individual experiences (either objectively or subjectively) a threat to his/her life, bodily integrity, or that of a caregiver or family.”

It guides my work with anyone who has experienced trauma, especially those who have experienced relational trauma and I hope it feels helpful for you to hear.

Why is this quote and what it represents so important?

For so long, in my field and collectively by lay people, trauma was imagined as something only soldiers endured in war. 

Or as a single, terrible event like a car crash or a rape. 

And OF COURSE these are all potentially very traumatic experiences. 

But in this current iteration of psychological traumatology – there has been an increasing (and much needed) understanding of the neurobiology of trauma, including the subjectivity of it. 

In other words, contrary to popular belief, it isn’t relegated to just a discrete set of experiences or incidents (like a car crash or wartime conflict). 

Instead, it now has a much more expansive definition. 

Trauma can be an event, series of events, or prolonged circumstances that are subjectively experienced by the individual who goes through it as physically, mentally, and emotionally harmful and/or life-threatening AND that overwhelms the individual’s ability to effectively cope with what they went through. 

The key here is the word “subjective” – what may make something traumatic to me, may not to you, and so forth. 

As a clinician, I gauge trauma by whether the client’s BODY is having a trauma response, not whether the precipitating incident was objectively traumatic.

If a trauma response is present, then trauma is present. 

Again, I want you to understand that it is subjective so that we can answer that second question – “How do I know if mine counts?”

Simply put, if it felt traumatic to you, it counts.

What kind of events and circumstances might lead to trauma?

“Trauma is not just an event that took place sometime in the past; it is also the imprint left by that experience on mind, brain, and body.” — Bessel van der Kolk, MD

Now, having grounded us in the realization that it is subjective and highly personal, there are still proverbial buckets of experiences we can categorize traumatic events and circumstances into that help us answer the first part of that question: “What even is trauma?”

These buckets of trauma experiences, combined with the element of subjectivity, come into play when we talk about relational trauma (the focus of my clinical body of work) because you endure relational trauma as well as have traumatic experiences from any of these other types of trauma buckets, too, WHICH can exacerbate the impacts of relational trauma. 

I’ll be writing more on this – the compounding of various forms of trauma – in future essays but, for now, let’s just quickly review these primary buckets.

• Acute trauma: This refers to a single-incident, one-time event such as experiencing a wildfire, car crash, school shooting, terrorist event, or house fire.This is what so many people historically and stereotypically think of as “trauma.”
  
• Chronic trauma: This refers to a set of experiences that are repeated and take place over time, such as enduring racial microaggressions, middle school bullying, poverty, exposure to violence in the community, or long-term medical challenges.
• Secondary trauma: Also known as vicarious trauma. This type can affect people who help others cope with trauma, such as healthcare professionals, therapists, and first responders. It results from exposure to others’ traumatic experiences rather than from direct personal experience. 
• Complex trauma: Often called developmental or relational trauma. It’s the kind that takes place over time in the context of a caretaking relationship (usually between a parent and child) that fails to adequately support the child’s biopsychosocial development, such as in cases when ongoing neglect, sexual abuse, physical punishment, witnessing domestic violence, or being raised by a personality- or mood-disordered parent occurs.

This – complex trauma – is the focus of my entire body of clinical work in the world. 

I’ll be elaborating on how and why this particular kind of trauma is, in my personal and professional opinion, one of the most damaging kinds to endure in my next essay. 

But, for now, hopefully by sharing this high quality psychoeducation with you in today’s essay, you can help answer the questions I would have liked to answer when I was fifteen or twenty years old:

“What even *is* trauma?” and “How do I know if mine “counts”?”

And now I’d love to hear from you in the comments:

Did this information help answer one or both of those questions for you? How does realizing this support you and your healing work?

If you feel so inclined, please leave a message so our community of 30,000 blog readers can benefit from your share and wisdom.

Finally, as you contemplate beginning therapy to recover from your own childhood trauma symptoms, I would strongly encourage you to work with a licensed mental health professional who is also trained in an evidence-based trauma modality (like EMDR).

If you live in either California or Florida, and you would like tailored, expert support, either myself or my talented team of childhood trauma clinicians at my boutique, trauma-informed therapy center – Evergreen Counseling – can be of support to you. 

Please just book a complimentary 20-minute consult call with our center’s clinical intake director and she can match you to an relational trauma therapist on our team who is the best fit for you clinically, relationally, and logistically (and it very well may be me who is the best fit for you as a therapist!).

And if you live outside of California or Florida, please consider exploring my online course specifically designed for childhood trauma recovery.

Finally, if you’re still not sure if this content applies to you, if you’re still not sure if you come from a relational trauma history and may deal with childhood trauma symptoms, I would invite you to take my signature quiz – “Do I come from a childhood trauma background?” 

It’s a 5-minute, 25-question quiz I created that can be incredibly illuminating and will point you in the direction of a wide variety of resources that can be of further help to you.

Plus, when you take the quiz, you’ll be added to my mailing list where you’ll receive twice-a-month letters from me sharing original, high-quality essays (with accompanying YouTube videos and audios you can stream) devoted to the topic of childhood trauma recovery and where I share more about me as a person, my life, and how I’m deep along on my own recovery journey.

My newsletters are the only place where I share intimate glimpses into my life (including photos), the resources that are supporting me, the things I’ve discovered that delight me, words that are uplifting me, the practices that nourish me, etc. 

So please be sure to sign up for my mailing list whether or not you want to take the quiz as it’s the best way to be in touch with me and hear all the things I only share with my newsletter subscribers.

So thank you. 

And until next time, please take such good care of yourself. You’re so worth it.

Warmly, Annie

 

References

Pearlman, L. A., Saakvitne, K. W., & Weingarten, K. (2000). Risking connection: A training curriculum for working with survivors of childhood abuse. Sidran Institute.